Guess what (and other stupidities)

[Billy Underdog]

Psychoactive drugs is the one thing I will never ever have.

Erhmm... Codeine is psychoactive... Even caffeine and nicotine is considered psychoactive. I get what you mean, though, by drugs that "change you". In that regard Benzos aren't any more "mind altering" than opiates (and their derivatives, which codeine is). Only thing is that opiates are even more addictive. And alcohol is just as much, if not more, mind altering than cannabis.
If you really wanna go into what's mind altering, then you'll have to get into hallucinogens like mdma ("ecstacy") or psychedelics (LSD, Mushrooms etc...)

[Charger]

No mind altering for me thank you.

Did not know Codeine was considered psychoactive. It most certainly doesn't work for that way!

I took amitriptyline for pain for a short stint but that (being used as for depression also) messed up my head a little bit so I had to cut that short.

I am rather certain for sure having eaten codeine for over 15 years now that I am addicted to it but that doesn't matter as long as it works and I keep getting it.

[Billy Underdog]

It most certainly doesn't work for that way!

It can be very hard to tell by yourself. I've gone around not being myself at all without knowing many times.
It's most notable when you suddenly haven't got them any longer. If you think you're depressed now, try going a couple of days without them...

I took amitriptyline for pain for a short stint but that (being used as for depression also) messed up my head a little bit so I had to cut that short.

I am rather certain for sure having eaten codeine for over 15 years now that I am addicted to it but that doesn't matter as long as it works and I keep getting it.

Anti depressants for pain? Never heard that one before... I know some are used to help sleep, esp. in treatment for addiction, as they're considered less addictive. But they most certainly will mess with your head, yes. Can be good for the right person in the right setting. I've tried shitloads, but still haven't found one that works for me. Actually trying stuff for the second time too now, i'm that desperate. Have been taking mirtazapine the last month. If anything they just make me more depressed, so i'm going to quit them again...

After 15 years you are definitely addicted. But as long as you keep to the prescription and don't start overusing them you should be fine. Atleast as long as your doc doesn't deside to cut you off for whatever reason. You don't strike me as the type of person who'd take one or two extra just to get a little buzz, though, and having been on them for so long the doc should have a very valid reason for cutting you off...

[Zzzptm]

Addiction is a struggle that never ends. It can take years, even decades, before finding the right frame of mind needed to stay sober... and then there's always the question of one day at a time... Sure, you've been sober all these other days before today, but are you going to be sober today? You can't drop a guard, ever.

[Charger]

Anti depressants for pain? Never heard that one before...

Yeah they are quite commonly prescribed for pain here...especially for chronic pain. My mom is on amitriptyline for her shoulder pain. I assume it is because it both alleviates pain and ease sleeping...

[Billy Underdog]

Addiction is a struggle that never ends. It can take years, even decades, before finding the right frame of mind needed to stay sober... and then there's always the question of one day at a time... Sure, you've been sober all these other days before today, but are you going to be sober today? You can't drop a guard, ever.

Thanks for the cheer up...

Anti depressants for pain? Never heard that one before...

Yeah they are quite commonly prescribed for pain here...especially for chronic pain. My mom is on amitriptyline for her shoulder pain. I assume it is because it both alleviates pain and ease sleeping...

Yeah, i saw that when checking it up. Till now i've been trying almost anything but TCAs, so i got a bit curious about it. Gotta mention it to my doc next time i see her...

[Billy Underdog]

Guess what. This is my post #666 

[Thelemech]

Guess what. This is my post #666 

Mr Crowley approves of this post!!!

[Billy Underdog]

The most successful conspiracy Illuminati ever pulled off is convincing people they actually exist...

[Vyn]

Vapor Trails man, vapor trails.

[Billy Underdog]

Vapor Trails man, vapor trails.

Yeah, i'm huffing all i can. That's some gooood shiiiit, man. 

[Zzzptm]

Fnord.

[Billy Underdog]

So, we've got Hollywood, Bollywood and Dollywood. When will we get a Rock N' Rollywood?

[Zzzptm]

There is a Rollywood, but they're an Indian rock band that plays 80's power ballads with a Cantopop influence...

[Billy Underdog]

Just posting this to get to "the middle floor"...